“True love doesn’t have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you.”
first blog in a while.. so here goes..
if i cant give it my all, it wouldn’t be fair. i have so much personal shit going on right now.. as of late i rarely sleep.. wake up in the early afternoon. schoolwork is mediocre.. when i know i can be pulling better.. then rinse and repeat. im literally a fucking zombie.. the reason why i play xbox all day.. so i can fucking escape reality. right now is the lowest of the low i have been in a very long time. everything is so scrambled i feel as if im drowning in my own problems. feeling helpless.. having no control.. is the worst possible feeling. as of right now, i dont feel like i have a grasp on my life. due to things out of my control and being irresponsible have all lead up to where i am. I cant commit to someone if i cant even take care of myself. I know everyone has problems, and i just need to deal with it. This is why im taking this time to repair and do some damage control. I need to do me, and i need to get all my shit together. When i do make my comeback, i will be 10x stronger and wiser..
and to the woman that has changed my life forever.. i love you, and i thank you.. for everything. You have impacted my life like no other person has. you are the most genuine, caring, and amazing person i have ever met.. and its not fair if i cant give you all of me.. and by chance someone else happens to come along that sweeps you off your feet and can.. then so be it. you deserve the world, and deserve to be happy.. so take this time, to work on yourself as well, you have a bright future.. with or without me. we both needed this time.. and i just had to step up and make a decision. youve made me realize many things, opened my mind up and theres no way i can repay you for that.
no regrets.
you’ll always have a place in my heart.
1 year ago • Notes